Ode to M

M always does this to me. She fills me up with love from across the world, leaving me heartbroken. She fills the vacuum between us with poetry and music. She did it across the bed-post, she's doing it across continents and I have reason to believe that she will continue to do so for as long as distance separates us. She builds bridges across the boundaries. She'll move swiftly and silently across stretches of land, she'll dive into oceans, always saving me. She is my saviour, my knight in shining armour.

She is the light of my muse and the might of my quill. She is the writer of my words, she is the reader of my words. She sees me through the smoke.


This one's for you M. This is the long overdue 'Ode to M' I promised you. I love and miss you more than the 'girl who reads' can write.

A musical flame, as smoke fills the air,

Your misty thoughts leaving you, bare.

Your insides are colliding, empty sounds,

Smoke engulfs, embrace your wounds.

Drowning in the smoke, feel the pain,

You're losing, this wasn't yours to gain.

Drenched now, a victim of the haze,

Share this moment, meet her gaze.

Music and lyrics, whisper in the night,

Time to surrender, you put up a fight.

Within you a vacuum, within without,

She'll dive in and save you, just shout.

My December

Oh December, what has taken you so long?

Were you waiting until I wrote you a song?

You've been my favourite, months among

Don't you keep me waiting, it is so wrong

Oh December, I welcome you, come along

I forgive you December, you're finally here

Waiting no longer, i'll wipe away my tear

You've replaced the emptiness, there's cheer

You'd never come, this filled me with fear

You are the beginning of the end, each year

December snow, shining lights in the sky

You have been missed, this I won't deny

Don't trust, words are not what they imply

This year, your cliches, i'm going to defy

No I won't say hello, this is our goodbye.

Now that the long wait has ended, the year slowly gone by, I don't want to say hello, i'd much rather say goodbye. You were the freshly bloomed flowers of spring, you were the scorching sun's rays in the summer, you were the falling autumn leaves, you were everything all at once. 

You were the ghost of all seasons, but now you've come to life. I've been chasing your spirit, month after month, and i've finally caught up. But now that i've found you, your white light is blinding. Now that I can embrace you, I fall to numbness. 

You fill my heart, you shatter it all the same. You pierce me with showers of snow, my fireplace is devoid of flame. The sky with white diamonds shining, i'm lost in darkness, more than ever before. I had come in order to find you, i've lost myself on the way.

I'm trying to explain, this story to bind

To share with you, what's on my mind

I've tried to rhyme, be slow and sublime.

Words fail me, should I surrender to mime?

I've also tried poetry in prose, not knowing which way this road goes. It's a risk i've taken, hoping to be forgiven. The words, they've decided to abandon me. Tonight their not friends, they're foes. I can't write my own lyrics, there's another stuck in my head. It's soft like the piano, healing my pain. It blares like the drums, exposing them again. The music, it's heartbreaking, you'll forget all you've just read. I dare you to listen, and not a single tear shed. 

The beauty of December, it's a burden I can longer bear. Through someone else's words, myself i'll share.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9YvZn1hgIvo

"And it'll be the best christmas of all"